Category: Songs

Back To You

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I’m older now, but I’m still wrong

I’m bolder now, I’ve still lost

Let me cry into midnight blue

I’ll find a way back to you

 

Find a way back to you

 

 

Find way back to you

 

 

Back, to, you

 

 

Step by, step once step back

Allow it in before you let it go

For its final time pretend it will be okay,

That it wont be gone alone

 

 

Step by, step once step back

It’s sorry you can’t see it anymore

Its given in to whats to be done

Pain took its life and it took you too

 

 

Stand by, stand tall stand up

Allow me in before you let me go

For his final time pretend he will be okay,

That he wont be gone alone

 

 

Stand up, stand tall stand strong

He’s sorry you can’t see him anymore

He’s given in to what he’s become

Pain took his life and it took yours too

 

 

And I’m falling, deeper than I’ve been before

And I’m sinking, lower than I’ve been before

 

 

Step by, step once, Step back

Falling down, deeper than I’ve been before

Stand by, stand tall, stand up

Sinking down, deeper than I’ve been before

Step by

Back to you

Step once

Back to you

Step back

Back to you

Stand by

Back to you

Stand tall

Back to you

Stand up

Back to you

Step Back

Back to you

Snowdrop Cliff

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You don’t understand loneliness until you’ve exhausted someone who was nearly in love with you to the point of abandonment..

Arch my angels

White light..Late night…

Stepson…

I’M NOT

Snowdrop Cliff

My love may melt the snow here

“The snow is the cliff, my dear”

I have loved and lost a life here

“The life was never yours to lose, my dear”

I have come to leave my life here

“Don’t leave yourself because everyone else does, my dear”

 

Death and other angels

All weep in this spot

Edge of the cliff?

Worn and strained love

Love

Love

Love…

(FLORENCE)

I’M NOT

Snowdrop Cliff

My snow may melt the love here

“You’re part of what you fear, my dear”

I have lost the life I loved here

“You’re looking in the wrong places, my dear”

I have left to come to life here

“Remember everything you’ve learned so far, my dear”

(Don’t mind if we never go)

(Never go home)

Fall into cloud

Sunder into shroud

Fall into The Grey

The snow city is so far away

(FLORENCE)

I’M NOT

LIAR

Fall into cloud

I’M NOT

Sunder into shroud

I’M NOT

Fall into The Grey 

I’M NOT COMING BACK

The snow city is so far away

“I’M NOT COMING BACK FOR YOU”

…

The worst thing about leaving is nobody looking for you

So

Never let me go

 

It’s time to dye this snow red. Pour us into this cliff where our essence is strongest anyways. I’m here to empty you out of me. I’m here to empty us out of me.

All of the lies. When you said you would stop lying. You tried to, I know that.

You can’t force love.

“Can I disentangle us?” I wrote. You certainly weren’t there to. The fights we had, you’d vanish, gone, for days on end. You didn’t seem to care.

The breakups where you always expressed a desire to stay broken up. And I pushed for us.

I can’t force love.

The names you called me. The way you acted when you got drunk. “I’m sorry. I was flirting with him.” The promises you broke.

I trusted you with a bonding promise. I implored you to never break a promise while my hand held yours.

You broke them.

The memories. I helped you change environments – workspace, friends. I kept you alert, on your toes. I helped you tell your father you loved him on new years eve.

The standalone pieces of my heart, my heart, that I thought I’d found when I found you

I broke them.

Count yourself lucky that you aren’t stuck remembering all of the light times. I count you lucky that you get to act a fool and a victim after everything you’ve done to me.

I have never been easy, nor have I been clean, but I have and always will be a sacrificial, loyal and healing spirit. You, the only person to ever say different, cannot take that from me.

Snowdrop Cliff, I know who I am, I know where I stand.

I will never write about you again.

February Snow

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It’s been cold,

January snow

Ironic that for our favourite weather,

We are alone

 

I think of your cheeks,

Hot pink, burned from frost

Like settled ladybugs,

Lovewords that I have lost

 

You’re good at keeping warm,

And all I know is surviving through Winter

But you’re not safe where you are now,

And I’ll be dead before Easter

…

It’s still so cold,

February snow

Time not spent together,

Away from home

 

I think of your smile

Do you remember a time?

Anything at all?

Lovebirds that cannot chime

 

May your face wrinkle,

From the laughter someone gives you

May your hands find,

Someone to pull closer at night

 

May your hugs comfort,

As from Pooh

May your lifeline seek,

A succesful rhyme

…

I am so cold,

February snow

This snowdrop cliff

Never let me go

People Just Untie Themselves

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Lights all lost, this snowdrop cliff,

Heroes gone, awake in the rain,

I have been abandoned, yet again

 

City below, forgotten feeling of love,

Cathedral where I cannot breathe,

Not safe enough to sleep

 

Fallen once, fallen twice,

Given up, I’ve Given in,

I should never (have) let you in

 

Wind, I need you to howl right now

I need to know, I need to hear

I can’t hear with him still in my ear

Just rush at me,

Push me out, knock me in, move me

Pass right through me

 

I am haunted by happiness

I can never let go of the past

Too much punishment, too fast

 

Always to be beaten dry,

Always on the end of a fist,

There is no saving me from this

 

Fallen once, Fallen twice

Given up, I’ve given in

You never (even) wanted in

 

Wind, I need you to howl right now

I need to know, I need to hear

I can’t hear with him still in my ear

Just rush at me,

Push me out, knock me in, move me

Pass right through me

 

You said you’d find me if I disappeared

Where am I? Where am I? Where am I?

I told you,

I deserve all the pain I’ve suffered

 

But I know he lied

I know he changed our position

I know now to always trust intuition

But I can’t help (but) listen

I can’t help it, I miss him

 

I need you,

I need you,

Wind? I need you