Category: Songs

I’ve been going blow to blow with one of the exes
Because he made me believe in love then made toys of my exits
I was writing initials in the snow, now I’m day drinking

Be waiting a while on a guy like him
Patiently, I stand still
Because the love I thought he had moved me the way pain moves through families

I’ve been nose to nose with a lot of hard truths lately
I would’ve built him up a home, but he wanted walls, mainly
I was smiling at my phone, while he was out game chasing

Be waiting a while on a guy like him
Patiently I stand still
I’ll wait until the end
It’d break my heart if he came back to emptiness
Oh it’d break my heart if he felt this emptiness

I spot a flame by the bar
With some guy getting drunk
I remember the time you were shy until smooth with me, do you?

You’ve got that glint in your eye
Is it headlights or stars
For me over here it’s blinding and burning healed scars

He’s got his hair nice and all
Wearing his favourite top
I can just smell the aftershave he has on

Seems like he’s happy and all
But I know underneath it he’s small
My little man goes hunting in the dark
Does this fella know you’ll leave him in a month?
Space out replies, flirt with other guys, till he gives up?

Crawl back to my arms
If you leave then you’ll fall
You’re not big enough for it at all
World’s a bit of a beast when you take it head on

Convinced he’s strong
He toughs through it all
Still cries in the taxi home when he’s alone

Made up a promise
Swore I was the one
But you gave it all up when you needed it most
Tell me James does my name hurt to say, or is it meaningless?

Crawling back to my arms
If you leave then you fall
Youre not big enough to tank it all
Worlds a bit of a bitch when you’re vulnerable

Convinced he’s strong
Chin up sees no wrong
Still wonders why he can’t keep a man for long
Love bombs then he runs before the blast goes off
I was looking through rubble for the man I loved
He was in bed with a guy I didn’t know yet of

Cause he makes up a promise
He swears blind no one cares
I loved you, give it up

Crawl back to my arms
Love isn’t lost, give it up
Still cries in the taxi home when he’s alone

Does she laugh when we’re not here?
Does she even speak to him?
Is he aware that all of his kids know,
That his marriage depends on them?

Does she hideaway upstairs?
Does she even believe it herself?
She may never have loved him,
But still didn’t leave him for what he did to me

Does she feel obligated to him?
Like I did in my last love life
Feeling raped every night
Closing doors to escape fights

Is his redemption salt in her eyes?
Is she allowed resentment when she took his side?
Maybe it’s guilt hiding in plain sight
Behind shut doors, I would shake and cry

Raising myself took borrowed might
Have you ever tried to convince a child not to die?
Now they come to me with puppy eyes
And I nurture the ones who entropized my light

My man digs graves
Digs every day
He don’t paint no walls
He don’t write no books

And when he’s paid
He buries the money

My man digs graves
Deeper every day
He don’t sing no songs
He don’t twiddle no thumbs

And when he’s late
He’s gone for days

My man digs graves
Digs like in chains
He’s got them all placed
He’s got them all named

He doesn’t pray
He digs deeper every day

Ah,

My man digs graves

I’ve never planned to see each sunset
That my life might span to claim
I was never one for goodbyes
Because I couldn’t trust the way your face…

We’d talk about it often
How I’ll eventually quit the game
I said I’ve never been given many options
But I’ll be the one who choses my way away

I don’t know when your love stopped
I don’t know if me or you changed
But for a sunny day in Portmarnock
I was sure it’d come back again

And all the rain was pouring
And all the children knew their names
You promised to stick by me forever
But forever was just a phrase

We walked fast past a couple
The old man clutched his leg
His wife held his back
As she ushered us ahead of them

I was singing to myself
Because I felt lost within our space
That old man followed my trail
Together we sang away

Some sad song, what’s the name?
I can’t recall if it was real or fake
I struggled to finish the lyrics
But behind us he boomed with grace

“All the rain was pouring,
All the children knew their names.
You promised to stick by me forever,
But forever was just a phrase.”

All this time, you just kept walking
You didn’t say a single thing
So I turned to you and asked
“Is everything okay?”

To my surprise, you were crying
So many tears escaped your face
“I always knew you were meant to be in the world for a long time”
You said as you held yourself in pain

I just turned and looked away
As my form began to dissipate
“I’m sorry Alex”, I let myself say
I had left you all alone and haunted you in every way

And all the rain had poured then
All the children had moved away
I promised to stick by you forever
Until forever became a pain

I heard from a red-breasted small bird
“Home is where your home is.”
As he perched on my fingers,
This tiny beast of dirt.
When trees were tipped with leaves
Of burning scarlet
From the oxygen of Autumn

I could’ve broken his neck
Had he not just said
“Home is where your home is”, right then.
So I made a home in my head
Decided to settle within
With the Robin, who never questioned it.

As the years progressed,
My home too stone for a Robin Red-Breast,
I tore from my sanctuary,
Thought it best.

But when there’s a salt in the breeze,
Fires within the fields,
A red-breasted small bird appears to me.
Whisperedly;
“Home is – where your home is?”

“A place where I can see the stars.
Instead of guilt tripping on the stones,
That I kick up at the stars.
The stones that I kick up at the stars.
Stones that I kick up at the stars –
– stones that I kick up at the stars –
– trip over the stones, that I kick up at the –
– stones that I kick over the stars –
– kick over stones, and I trip over the stars.”

I miss my brothers
I haven’t seen them since the end of the world
We survived the diseases, breathed the burning breezes
Now we deal with the end of the world

I miss them dearly, isolated fearing
I hope to see them before the end of the world
Each one a beacon, On my knees, pleading
Can I see them before the end of the world

One final embrace, ours are the faces
The faces of the end of the world
Our lives the last, our eyes the last
All hand in hand, for the end of the world

Marko and Ciaran, it hurts to speak on
I’ll see you at the end of the world
Ellie and Amy, I’ll be waiting
I’ll see you at the end of the world
Paul and Tracey, the ones who made me
I’ll see you at the end of the world
Tilly and Niall, I’m right behind
Together at the end of the world

I’m at the sunset
I’ll see you at the end of the world
Harmonic disturbance, we achieved nothing
I’ll see you at the end, of the world
No god showed, there’s nothing above, nothing below
I’ll see you at the end of the world

I wish for my brothers,
I’ll see you at the end of the world
We had it coming, couldn’t outrun it
I’ll see you at the end of the world
All this for nothing
I’ll see you at the end of the world
We’ll be together, goodbye forever
I’ll see you at the end of the world

Generation carbon
We knew we would be the end of the world
Political freezes, money and underground leeches
I give you the end of the world

Cement will burn, from the heat of the new sun
Misjudged, it’s the end of the world
Suits tried to run, if you breathe, you will burn
Welcome to the end of the world

To my father, and my father’s father
I’ll forgive you at the end of the world
What happens thereafter
We’re at the mercy of the end of the world

Rob and Nicky, love is that tricky
I’ll see you at the end of the world
Cyro and Ness, you hit me the best
I’ll see you at the end of the world
Nadz and Katz, my favourite brats
I’ll see you at the end of the world
Jack and Jay, I’d do anything to save
I’ll see you at the end of the world

I’m at the sunset
I’ll see you at the end of the world
Harmonic disturbance, we achieved nothing
I’ll see you at the end, of the world
No god showed, there’s nothing above, nothing below
I’ll see you at the end of the world

I wish for my brothers
I’ll see you at the end of the world
We had it coming, couldn’t outrun it
I’ll see you at the end of the world
All this for nothing
I’ll see you at the end of the world
We’ll be together, goodbye forever
I’ll see you at the end of the world

Watching the world burn, I see flames in the eyes of Ciaran
Too dry to cry,
When we were younger, I wiped them so many times
Anna’s in shock, still acting strong
Rob’s got my shoulder, we never grew older
Cyro so defeated, a fighter I never thought could be beaten
All of my friends
Skin glowing red
I see them and it’s the end of the world

I’m at the sunset
Cliffside to nothing
Ours are the faces
The faces of the end of the world

I left a lot of nights to blue
Exactly what happened, I’ve never had a clue
See,
Nobody ever really cared about me
Despite how far I went, how dangerously
Into the streets
Myself and me

And all along the roads I never believed in
I came across some nodes, their tips beating
A gang of them, didn’t know their names or meanings
But still said I’d go to lose the evening
Closed all the doors

My pupils wide,
Top me up all night
And would you believe?
I’m only seventeen

We went skipping on train tracks, my nameless friends that
Gave me my youth by removing the child from me
See,
Nobody ever really listened to me,
So I sinned and snuggled into an inner duality
Became two different boys, just for the company
To contrast my crooked reality

All along those roads, he was all I had to know, to believe in
I came across no more than what he was thinking
He countered all of my hopes, so we could pretend we’re dreaming
Went up and low, just to feel it
Closed all the doors

My pupils riot,
Pill poppin’ high
Would you believe?
I’m only seventeen

Seventeen

He says to me
“You’re the greatest you’ll ever be, at seventeen”
His hands are on me,
Because I’m only seventeen
Is it life or a dream?
I’m only seventeen

I’m only seventeen