Goodbye Alex

I’ve never been given many options
But I’ll be the one who choses my way away

I’ve never planned to see each sunset
That my life might span to claim
I was never one for goodbyes
Because I couldn’t trust the way your face…

We’d talk about it often
How I’ll eventually quit the game
I said I’ve never been given many options
But I’ll be the one who choses my way away

I don’t know when your love stopped
I don’t know if me or you changed
But for a sunny day in Portmarnock
I was sure it’d come back again

And all the rain was pouring
And all the children knew their names
You promised to stick by me forever
But forever was just a phrase

We walked fast past a couple
The old man clutched his leg
His wife held his back
As she ushered us ahead of them

I was singing to myself
Because I felt lost within our space
That old man followed my trail
Together we sang away

Some sad song, what’s the name?
I can’t recall if it was real or fake
I struggled to finish the lyrics
But behind us he boomed with grace

“All the rain was pouring,
All the children knew their names.
You promised to stick by me forever,
But forever was just a phrase.”

All this time, you just kept walking
You didn’t say a single thing
So I turned to you and asked
“Is everything okay?”

To my surprise, you were crying
So many tears escaped your face
“I always knew you were meant to be in the world for a long time”
You said as you held yourself in pain

I just turned and looked away
As my form began to dissipate
“I’m sorry Alex”, I let myself say
I had left you all alone and haunted you in every way

And all the rain had poured then
All the children had moved away
I promised to stick by you forever
Until forever became a pain

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