I’ve been going blow to blow with one of the exes
Because he made me believe in love then made toys of my exits
I was writing initials in the snow, now I’m day drinking
Be waiting a while on a guy like him
Patiently, I stand still
Because the love I thought he had moved me the way pain moves through families
I’ve been nose to nose with a lot of hard truths lately
I would’ve built him up a home, but he wanted walls, mainly
I was smiling at my phone, while he was out game chasing
Be waiting a while on a guy like him
Patiently I stand still
I’ll wait until the end
It’d break my heart if he came back to emptiness
Oh it’d break my heart if he felt this emptiness
Month: February 2024
James
I spot a flame by the bar
With some guy getting drunk
I remember the time you were shy until smooth with me, do you?
You’ve got that glint in your eye
Is it headlights or stars
For me over here it’s blinding and burning healed scars
He’s got his hair nice and all
Wearing his favourite top
I can just smell the aftershave he has on
Seems like he’s happy and all
But I know underneath it he’s small
My little man goes hunting in the dark
Does this fella know you’ll leave him in a month?
Space out replies, flirt with other guys, till he gives up?
Crawl back to my arms
If you leave then you’ll fall
You’re not big enough for it at all
World’s a bit of a beast when you take it head on
Convinced he’s strong
He toughs through it all
Still cries in the taxi home when he’s alone
Made up a promise
Swore I was the one
But you gave it all up when you needed it most
Tell me James does my name hurt to say, or is it meaningless?
Crawling back to my arms
If you leave then you fall
Youre not big enough to tank it all
Worlds a bit of a bitch when you’re vulnerable
Convinced he’s strong
Chin up sees no wrong
Still wonders why he can’t keep a man for long
Love bombs then he runs before the blast goes off
I was looking through rubble for the man I loved
He was in bed with a guy I didn’t know yet of
Cause he makes up a promise
He swears blind no one cares
I loved you, give it up
Crawl back to my arms
Love isn’t lost, give it up
Still cries in the taxi home when he’s alone